Well I haven’t blogged in about 20 days and my posts for November were, well…very few, lol. I am sorry that my blogging has petered out but I am just so tired and busy. Blogging rarely crosses my mind these days and when it does I am usually too busy to do it.

At this point my life consists of working afternoons and doing what I can to squeeze in my family and friends around that schedule. From 4pm till midnight I’m stuck at work. Sometimes I hate it because I miss so much of my kid’s lives and I only see my husband on the weekends or on my day off. When he leaves for work I am sleeping and when he returns home from work I’m already gone..and when I get home from work…he is sleeping. It’s not exactly a fun routine and it makes it hard for him and I to get time for… “us”

Working this schedule is hard on my body and mind. I’m tired much of the morning hours. And between 5 and 7 pm when I am off work I am fighting to not pass out in my chair. And then by 8pm my body kicks into work mode and I can’t fall asleep till midnight or 1 am. My normal routine?? Well, during the day I relax on the couch, play with Drew, care for my granddaughter and get ready for work that evening. If I find a burst of energy you may find me cleaning something, lol. For instance… yesterday I fixed my closet, cleaned my room, did laundry, and cleaned Drew’s room.

I always feel like I am running out time these days to get stuff done. I tend to have a lot of running around to do before work on most days…So basically when I am off work, I frequently hide in my house. I don’t mean to be a recluse but I am tired and I miss my family. And I want a day or two of not running around. Of not being bound to a time schedule. And honestly all I really want to do is hang out with Rick, talk with my kids, watch some tv and relax. So I usually avoid the outside world on my days off and sadly that does include this blog too.

I don’t know when I’ll blog again. I hope that my interest and drive to write returns…but I just don’t know.

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It’s November and I have only made . . . What? 3, maybe 4 entries? Guess I won’t be nominated for blogger of the month. Well I can’t commit to a post a day now, can I?? Oh well. ::: sigh ::: I’ll try to blog more but time is limited for me since I went back to work. I work afternoons and while that’s great because I don’t have to get up at the crack of dawn for work… it sucks in the “getting things done in your life” department. I don’t get home till 12:30 -1am usually and then sometimes I can’t sleep right away and M-F I have Drew and Tori in the mornings… so I usually don’t move past the babies and the couch till 11 am-ish. And by then there is usually a bunch of things for me to do before work at 4pm.

I know… I know… waaa waa waaa, right?! Honestly I am not really complaining just stating that I haven’t found a rhythm yet for fitting in everything I used to do in a day. I am going to make a strong effort to blog more though… starting now.

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I managed to get the day off today…. yippee! Not that it feels like a day off, lol I have a ton of things I am finishing up here today and a dozen errands I have to run…. But at least I have the day off to be able to do it all, lol. My MIL is coming over tonight…and my mom too. It’s a full family night, lol.

I am hoping to get pictures of my ghouls today so I can share with everyone later on. Have a Spooky Halloween all.

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I can’t believe Friday is Halloween. I mean where the hell did October go?? Would someone let me know who hit the fast forward on me?? I started working exactly 1 month ago (September 26th) and in that short time span my life has zoomed by. Not all of the fast forwarding put me in a crunch though. Some good stuff is going on too. For Instance….

- Dani got her report card and it boasted 5 B’s and 1 A. I am so proud of Dani and impressed to that she’s doing such a good job maintaining her grades. High school is hard and I expected her to struggle a bit more…simply because Dani tends to slack a bit and then go… “Opps this is harder then I thought.” But she’s doing Fantastic!!!

- Nikki passed her ASAT/Iowa Testing within average standards so her teachers recommended placing her in a Gen Ed Science Class. Now she’s in 4 General ed classes and 4 Special Ed classes. That 4 more General Ed classes then she had last year, lol. She’s coping exceptionally well in school. No outbursts or behavior problems at all!!! I am so proud of her!

- Andrew is doing GREAT in school too. His teachers came over for what they call a, “Home visit”, last week and they had nothing but good things to report. I was worried he have trouble in the socialization department since he doesn’t have a ton of other kids his own age to play with. But it turns out my fears were unjustified. He’s doing fabulous!!

- Ashley is adjusting very well to being a full-time mom, a full-time student and being back at work. I am amazed at just how well she’s doing it all. Sure there are times you can see things slip but, over all, for being 18… she’s really doing very well. I just wish she would see her boyfriend and his family for who they really are.. and I wish she’d move on without them. She’s so much better then they are. And she deserves better then him.

- Last but certainly not least exciting…I might be getting a promotion and a raise soon!!! The rumor is that Tom… the assistant manager… plans on retiring soon… And my boss Barb, the manager…plans on promoting me to his position!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!! And I’ve only been there a month!!! I am so honored and in awe that they have that much faith in me. I mean I know I can do it…lol. But proving that to others is the challenge, lol And I haven’t even been trying to prove anything other then I am a good employee, lol. I show up to work on time… do a good job.. and follow the rules, lol. Also I am so excited to. I mean I am waiting patiently, without too much hoping, for Barb to confirm this rumor. I am pretty sure it’s real though…because she’s made several comments to me about…”Having plans for me.” and being so happy she hired me.. and so on, lol But it will still be so much better when it’s all finally said… ya know.

So see… there’s been a ton of good stuff going on. But I still feel as if I am running out of time to get the rest of my life in, lolol. I am sure thing will calm down soon and I’ll feel more at peace, lol But for now… someone must be holding down that fast forward button! lol.

In case I don’t make it back before Friday… Happy Halloween Everyone!!

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… these days I have almost no extra downtime. I can’t seem to get on my pc much at all. Since I went back to work I haven’t had a day that I could be on my pc but for maybe 10-15 minutes. Even on my days off I am busy and running around. Hopefully I’ll find some better balance soon.

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Hello Blog World. Yes I am still alive ans breathing. I know it’s been like forever since I was here right?! Ohh Ok, so I don’t exaggerate…it’s been a couple weeks only. And a lot has happened in that time frame. For one thing I am working outside the house again. I work nights, 40 + hours a week now. This week I put in 48 hours..so far, lol..yippee. It’s not so bad really. I mean besides my feet which feel as if I need to chop them off each night…just so I can get some relief from the pain. I am on my feet for 8 hours straight a night, lol. But even that is getting a bit better. So what else is going on?? It’s all pretty much normal stuff that’s been happening around here. Let’s see…

1. Victoria turns 1 month old this Sunday. I can’t believe it’s been a month already!! She’s perfect and beautiful still of course!
2. Drew is doing fabulous in school and has his very first field trip coming up soon.
3. Ashley is doing great in college and is excited to be going back to work soon too. She hates being dependent on others, lol.
4. Dani & Nikki are both doing well is school too.

Halloween is coming up soon and I put in for the day off. I love taking my kids trick or treating. I am such a big kid when it comes to that day. I’d love to hit a few of the haunted houses too.. We’ll see I guess. So that’s it really. Lots of normal living and my big new of being back at work. I am adjusting pretty well. I am still super tired. But that’ll work it’s self out… I hope, lol.

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Between being sick and working like a dog I have been very tired and have had pretty much no time at all to blog. I have wanted to but just didn’t have the time or energy. I am sorry to have just left you all hanging. I still have this nasty head cold. That’s more then 3 weeks and counting now. Blec! And now Christmas is a spit away and I haven’t even started wrapping presents yet. Ahhhh!!

Work has been insane, lol. We have year end financials and projects to close out so I have been working till rather late in the evening. By the time I get home, make sure everyone was fed and unwind… it’s bedtime and I am passing out in my own dinner. I know…lol I am a sucky blogger. I’ll do my best to try and make it up to you all. Bear with me.

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My boss was out of the office today. Which is sort of a good thing because I got a lot of work done plus it allowed me to breath, relax and try to rescue my mind from the pits of hell.

But anyways it’s was a tad creepy around work today too. 3 times someone crept up behind me… really quietly and just stood there…staring at me…or should I say the back of my head. After 2-3 seconds I can sense that they’re there so I’ll say, “Can I help you?” and they’ll speak. But I mean how friggin creepy is that??!! Who sneaks up behind someone and just stands there? Either you say, “Boo!!” or you walk up and speak. Right?!

And apparently I am really annoying another woman (the only other one besides my boss and me) in the office. It appears that me having my office door closed about 3 quarters of the way really bothers her. She visited me twice and each time she takes a moment to fully open the door and look at it for an extra 3-5 seconds or so… almost as if she was telling it via some psychic control to stay open. I think it’s sort of funny, lol.

I keep it closed so that I get less stragglers stopping to chit chat. You see when my boss is out of the office there is a lot of wandering and chatting that goes on around there. You’d think that the other boss would keep people in line but, no… he’s off gabbing to others too. So in order for me to get optimal amounts of work done I have to partially close the door. It’s open enough that if someone needs me they won’t hesitate to enter… but closed enough to send the message, “No chit chat here, I am working.”

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