Drew still adores her…

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So Victoria is 8 days away from being 2 months old… and yes she’s still the most beautiful baby on the planet, lol!! But that’s not what I am ranting about. Obviously… right. LOL!

My bitch is this… I am so irritated with her DNA Donor…errr…her father. If he has even earned the right to be called that yet. And do not ask me for my opinion on that statement… because I’d have to say… umm… NO! He hasn’t earned anything…except maybe an ass whipping!

I can’t believe how much he’s NOT doing… and has NOT done in the (almost) 60 days she’s been alive. I knew he was immature. I knew he was selfish. But I had hoped… for Victoria’s sake that he would at least TRY to be a parent and TRY to fill her needs. I mean Ashley isn’t perfect either but at least she’s doing her best and is trying, daily, to be a good mom and make sure that baby has what she needs. But Caleb??? he’s just a waste of fucking oxygen!!! And I hate to say it but so are his parents. They’re not helping Ashley at all. But they all have a million and one comments to make about how she parents this baby. They challenge her decisions constantly and threaten to do things that Ashley has told them not to. It’s disgusting really. I don’t know how much longer I’ll be able to stand by saying nothing before I snap and tell them all exactly what I think.

I asked Caleb to open a juvenile savings account for his daughter. I asked him to put 5 bucks a paycheck in there for Tori… and ya know what he told me while he was eating McDonalds he got before he came over?? He can’t afford it.. he has no money. Umm No money?? then who paid for the burger your eating fat ass?? No money then why are you buying your 18th bowling ball?? (He still owns and uses the other 17 too) No money?? Then who’s paying for the movie you went to last week?? Or the bowling trip to Reno in July??? and so on… It’s bullshit. He has enough money to spare $5 every 2 weeks for his kid… but he’s a selfish asshole who doesn’t care! He won’t go without to give to his kid!

Ashley needs to wake up and see him for who and what he is. He’s not going to get better… he’s only going to get worse. And seriously… if he can’t be bothered to give a shit now… what hope is there that he’ll care about this kid 10 years from now??

In 2 months he has spent 4 dollars on his daughter… for baby wipes… that Ashley had to almost beg him for. He hasn’t changed any diapers… he hasn’t taken responsibility for anything she needs. All he does is come by 2-3 times a week after school and hold her for maybe 30 minutes. Oh and he whines and bitches that he wants to try again for a boy! That’s it. He can’t fricken take care fo the kid he has but he’s consumed with having another one????

If Ashley has another child with this moron… she is stupid… and she’s sentencing Tori to a life with a loser father who tossed her aside for baby #2… who he’ll only care about if it’s a boy… Maybe!!! And I say maybe because I think after the novelty of..”I got a son.” wears off and real life… and shity diapers moves back in he’ll blow that kid off too. And that’s if he gets a boy… I’d be willing to bet my arms that Ashley would have another girl. and then she’ll have 2 kids… that she cannot afford… by a selfish loser man… who will blow them off.

Tori deserves better then being ignored and blow off. Tori deserves to have a mother who’s willing to stand up to her father and tell him he’s wrong and that he better start doing right… or else kick his ass to the curb!!!

Talk is cheap and any asshole can TALK about what kind of parent they’ll be. But it takes a real person to BE a parent in the here and now. Being a parent is hard and inconvenient. It means putting the kid first and yourself last. and so far…. Caleb does NOTHING for this kid. He puts himself first, second, third and forth. and Ashley and Tori might make it to 5th and 6th on his list.. maybe! He doesn’t care for her physically…emotionally… or financially. So what good is he to Ashley or Tori?? NONE.

I just wish Ashley would see that. She’s so afraid to be alone that she is choosing not to see the truth. And in the end it’s Tori that will end up paying the ultimate price.

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I knew it was only a matter of time before the jealousy and comments started flying. It’s been 5 days since Tori was born and it’s starting. I don’t know all of the details yet but apparently Caleb is bothered by the fact that I live here and get to see the baby all of the time. I am “too” involved with “things.” At least according to Caleb. I am only as involved as Ashley wants me to be. But I am not surprised that he can’t see it that way. He acts like he really doesn’t like me… but says that isn’t true when confronted by Ashley.

Part of me expected this. And part of me is hurt. I know this is being driven by the fact that I live here with her and he doesn’t. I hope that he uses this to his advantage. That he starts saving and working towards them have their own place.

As for the being hurt part… I am a big girl … and I will deal with it and get over it. I plan on enjoying each second that my children are still here at home. And that extends to Tori as well. I love having them here and I know it won’t be forever so I am going to soak it up while I can.

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I think my body is coming down off of the emotional high now that we’re all back under the same roof, lol. I slept like the dead last night. I did still wake up a few times when I heard Tori, lol. I guess that mommy radar never really turns off once it’s activated, lol. Ashley had her though… of course. I never doubted her ability for even a second. She’s already shown herself to be a great mom. She’s on top of things. And her and Victoria are already bonded and in-tune to each other.

Next to being a mom…being a grandma is the coolest thing EVAH!! I love holding and cuddling with her. She’s so beautiful. And just so we’re clear… I am not biased at all… She really is the most beautiful baby of 2008. Everyone agrees, lolol (Ok ok, so maybe I am bit full of myself, lol… but can you blame me?)

I was lying in bed last night and thinking about how quickly life moves. I have a hard time accepting that my kids are 18, 15, 14, and almost 5 years old. Sometimes It seems like a joke. Especially with Drew. I mean how can he be almost 5 already??!! Surely I am delusional… right? He’s really still 6 months old and sleeping in his crib, right?? It’s then that reality hits and brings me back and I see that he is almost 5. And my girls are older. And now I am a grandma too!

Sometimes I really wish I could go back to simpler times with the kids. Back to when the biggest problem and challenge in their life was diaper rash, a skinned knee, or not wanting to go to bed for school the next day. The issues of a teenager are sometimes more then I want to deal with. I miss the days of simpler things.

Ahhh I am going to enjoy this time with Victoria… and the rest of the my kids… because time goes by too fast.

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They’ve finally been released and are home now!! Ashley is so happy to be home! Drew is so happy I think he’ll be squelling with glee till well after midnight now, lol. He missed Ashley very much and is showing it by bugging her non-stop, lol. He adores Tori too loved holding her.

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Well they placed Ashley on some meds and her blood pressure is responding. It’s finally dropped to “almost” normal. Yippee!!! As for Tori they won’t be testing her “billy” levels again to see if the jaundice is gone until 4am this morning. Cross your fingers for my babies!!!

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Ashley and Victoria are still in the hospital tonight. Victoria has developed Jaundice. it’s sort of common these day, especially in breastfed babies.

And Ashley is having trouble getting her blood pressure down. During her last visit her blood pressure was up slightly from her normal. They think that she may have been starting to develop preeclampsia. Because Tori was born it stopped the progress of it. But the after effects might be her elevated blood pressure. Of course that is just one guess so far. But it seem the most likely at this point.

I have full confidence that sometime in the next 36 hours they’ll be home… safe and sound. In the mean time I have some photos to share.

More on Flickr.”

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I am still at the hospital so I can’t get the tons of photos off of my camera just yet. But I took this photo with my cell phone and emailed it to myself. So here’s a sneak peek of my beautiful grandbaby. Yep I am biased.. she is the most beautiful baby…EVER!! lol.

Victoria Dyan - Born on September 5th, 2008 @ 12:58am
8 lbs 2 oz & 21 inches long.

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