Nichole Lynn. My sweet baby girl. You maybe the youngest of my girls but you are so wise in many other ways. And You look just like me in almost every way when I was your age. You have the same beautiful blue eyes, the same chin… the same cheeks..the same nose…the same smile. Gosh, 14 years… where did the time go? You’re a young lady now. You like boys now!! Lol.
…you came into my life unexpected 15 years ago when I discovered I was pregnant with you. During that pregnancy you kept me on my toes… constantly kicking and moving around. I swore you were building condos and theme parks in there. And when the moment finally came for you to be born you were messing around. My labor with you was very fast and you even had some bruises on your little face from being born so quickly.
After you were born I thought maybe I could relax. After all your older sister Dani was the poster child for perfect baby, lol. But that wasn’t the case. You were quick to remind me this was real life. You showed me what being a mother was really all about. You taught me that I was still new to being a mom and that I didn’t know as much as I thought I did. LOL. It wasn’t all fun.. things didn’t always work the first time. You were a normal healthy child who made demands and cried. I learned so much from you…and I will be forever grateful!!
One of the things you really taught me was to laugh! You make me laugh daily…even today. You remind me each day that sometimes life is hard, sometimes life is sad, and sometimes life sucks. But there are always times to smile, laugh, goof off and love. Being bipolar has been such a tremendous challenge for both of us. You have struggled a lot in the last couple of years. You’ve had your heart broken and have learned that you have to get up and keep going. And through it all… you always find time and reasons to laugh. You’ve taught me life is never so hard, or so sad that you can’t find a reason to laugh!!
In the 35 years I have been on this planet I have never met anyone else who is as loving or as generous as you are. You genuinely love and care for everyone. You see the good in people. You stress and worry over the problems your friends, teachers and neighbors may face in their lives…You’re always looking for ways to help or to just make them smile. You are an angel.
And you are still teaching me things… like tolerance and acceptance… through the friends you acquire and strangers you befriend. You remind me not to be so quick to judge. Sometimes people aren’t what they seem to be at first glance. I am grateful for that reminder. It’s hard to grow up and not become more guarded and I cherish the gift you’ve given me in remembering to give people a chance.
You’re smart, funny, loving… what more could a mom ask for? I am so proud of you sweetheart. I am blessed and honored to be your mom. Even when life is hard and you and I are angry and yelling…I still thank God that you are here with me.
Happy 14th Birthday Sweetheart!
I love you!