Today is a really bad day! I was really hoping it would pass, that it was just a slow starting morning. I hate how I feel right now. I think I am completely screwed for the remainder of the day. I am really hoping that it doesn’t last beyond today.
I can’t think. I can’t focus on anything. I can’t read without re-reading the same sentence at least 10 times. I look and sound distracted in every conversation I try to have, but I am not trying to do anything else at the same time. My mind is moving at three times the speed it normally moves… so were talking like upwards of like 500 mph. I am moody and short-tempered. All morning I have been flipping… no..it’s more like rapid cycling… between panic, tears and anger. All for unknown reasons… well… unless you count the mother of all reasons and that’s that I am Bipolar. I am so unstable today.
I am getting angry at the kids for …everything. My chest hurts…my stomach hurts…my heartbeat keeps racing as if I was running a marathon. It’s taken me over an hour to write this entry. Ugh!!! I hate this feeling.