I can’t help but sit here and feel like I am damned if I do or don’t. If I fix one issue or problem in our lives… something else goes wrong. I just got Ashley resettled and all is going good with her. She’s kicked “loser and his family” to the curb, she’s healthy and baby is doing a great job of growing in her belly. So what happens??? My husband turns into a freak and my marriage is once again on the rocks.
Can’t I have even one day of calm and happy all around the board? And I can’t help but be a but ticked off that I am turning 35 and my life… or at least my marriage… still feels uncertain. Haven’t I earned a certain level of security by now??? shouldn’t we be at that point of… “I love you and I am mad right now.. but I’ll get over it and nothing major is gonna happen to our relationship??” Instead my husband says tonight how… he’s going to “intentionally make me so angry and upset that I’ll get fed up, divorce him and leave him.” WTF!!! And then when I snidely responded, “Why would I waste my time and precious energy getting a divorce and leaving you?? That’s not my plan.” He goes, “It will be, I’ll make you so angry, it will be.”
So I am back here again… talking to the wall… Does he want out?? Is he trying to take the cowards way out?? It certainly keeps looking that way. I mean someone who wants to be together wouldn’t act this way. Right?